My little baby...

So about 2 weeks ago, I was laying in bed with my little baby Patton, rubbing her tummy like she demands, and I noticed that she had some small, squishy lumps in her lower tummy. I pointed them out to Dom, freaking out, and he said she has always had them and not to worry about it. So I calmed down and kept an eye on them. Last week, anytime we touched her lower tummy, she whined and cried...which I don't like to hear. I started feeling around for the lumps, and they were bigger and harder then they had been and they obviously hurt her, so I started freaking out again and called the vet to have her checked out and to get her current on all her shots. We took her in yesterday and the lumps are smaller and softer then they were, but she was freaking out when the vet was feeling them. They decided that they needed to stick a needle in them and pull out fluid to see if they could tell what they were. They had to take her in the back and when they stuck the needle in her, I could hear her cry, I almost lost it! They brought her back in, scared out of her mind after being stuck with 5 needles, and said that the lumps were so sensitive that they couldn't get very much fluid out of them, so they didn't know if they would be able to get a good idea of what it was. They came back in and said that the red blood cells are all inflammed and so they want to treat it as an infection and see if antibiotics will take care of it. The vet said if the antibiotics don't work, we can have a biopsy done, which scares me! After hearing all this, Dom and I decided that it was time to get her fixed, we've been meaning to for a while, we just haven't done it. She also needs to get her teeth cleaned, so we decided to schedule her for those two procedures since they can be done at the same time and it's just time. So now, my little baby girl is going to have surgery in a week and a half. If the lumps aren't gone, I'm going to tell them to just take them out. Having my puppies in surgery scares the crap out of me. I was a nervous wreck when Daisy had surgery. My baby is going to be gone all day...I have to drop her off at like 7:30 AM and I don't get her back till around 5:30 PM. It also scares me because I know that things can go wrong and I don't want anything to happen to my baby. I also don't want her to be in pain. So now, for the next 2 weeks or so, I'm going to be a worried mama.

Good News!

So Dom got some good news at work today. He has worked for Corporate Express since shortly after we got married and last summer, Corporate Express was bought by Staples. Since then, things have been kinda up in the air and from Sept-Dec of last year, Dom was required to take a day off every week...and he was told the drivers at Staples had to as well...only they didn't. So in December, Dom started getting sent to Staples to work since they were so busy. They really liked him over there and last week, 3 positions became available at Staples. Dom wasn't going to put in for the jobs because he didn't want to lose his $.50 back-up driver pay. Well, today when he got back to base, the HR guy called him into the office and told him that the Staples supervisor has requested that Dom be transferred. So Dom is now officially at the Staples hub starting tomorrow. I'm not worried about him not getting his hours, but his schedule is going to be weird. He is going to work Monday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. They told him that even though he is only working 4 days a week, the route he is assigned to averages 50 hours a week, which is good. And if they have a lot of stuff on Tuesday's, he'll get called in...which means even more hours. I know that Dom is gonna be super tired, but it will be nice for him to get some really good paychecks again, especially with STILL trying to buy a house!

Bit of a downer...

So I've been sick ever since we got back from Texas and I've been doing nothing but laying in bed...which isn't always a good thing for me. As I was laying in bed today, I started thinking about the fact that Dom and I have been married for almost 5 years and we still don't have a kid. I'm really sad about that. For as long as I can remember, I always said that when I grew up I wanted to be a mom, it's the only thing I've wanted that has stayed constant...and here I am, 26, married for 5 yrs, and no kid. When Dom and I first got married, I always said that I wanted to wait 5 yrs before having kids, but I never really meant it. After our first year, I was ready to try without trying, we both wanted a baby. Then to be told that you can't have a baby, it's absolutely devastating. I know that we "can" have a baby, but not on our own and maybe not even both of ours biologically. There have been a bunch of people I know that have had babies recently or who are pregnant, and I'm truely happy for all of them, but at the same time, it's really hard for me because I feel like I deserve a kid just as much as anyone else. I guess that I feel like it's a hopeless situation and that whichever avenue we take (infertility or adoption), it will be a really long time before we can afford it and it's never a sure thing. I guess another thing that makes it so hard is that in the mormon religion, you are expected to get married and start having kids. I'm always asked when we are planning on having kids and it kills me. I've told everyone that we can't have kids, but they still ask. I'm just scared that Dom and I will never have the chance to be parents, and that is really sad because he'd make an amazing daddy. And what are we supposed to do with our entire lives if we don't have kids and grandkids? It just seems like a very lonely existance...

New Addition

So this past week on December 15th, my big sister gave birth to a beautiful baby girl names Kailee Frances Nydegger. She is a beautiful little girl who looks just like her daddy. I'm very excited for this new addition to the Loosli family, I'm just sad that I don't know when I will get to meet her for the first time.

It's been a while...

I really need to get better at updating this thing! So in the past month and a half, Dom and I went to Utah and helped Marina move to AZ, which I am way excited about! We've had a lot of fun hanging out! Marina came over for Thanksgiving and helped me cook dinner and then we went midnight shopping at The Disney Store and then we were off to Walmart...we got there about 1 AM and were there till about 6:15 AM. It was a crazy morning full of crazy people, but we did get almost all of our Christmas shopping done. I only have a few people to buy presents for. I got Dom's XBox and in return, he bought me the absolute BEST hair straightner ever! I love it!
So nothing much has changed on the house front, except that we still don't have a house. The bank is being really stupid and we are tired of waiting, so we have started looking at other houses. We have put an offer on another house that I like better. It's smaller, but it has a bigger backyead and it's closer to in then the one we already have an offer on. So now we are waiting on the two houses, and Dom wants me to go and look at houses again this Friday, but we'll see.
Desi is finally down here with Marina, and since I don't work on Friday's, I get to take her! I'm so excited to spend the day with her cause she is so much fun! We are gonna make some cute Christmas ornaments and then Friday night we are having a girls night at Marina's house. Saturday we are going to the Zoo with Dom and then Dom is gonna take Desi on a date while I go to Marina's Christmas Party with her. Then next weekend we have my Christmas Party at the Biltmore, which I'm way excited about cause they are always really good. Dom and I decided that we are going to stay at The Biltmore for the night as a treat for ourselves.
That's about all for now...I'm just crossing my fingers that we get a contract on a house before April 30th so that I can still get my baby money...but we will see what happens, just like always...

So this past weekend I was able to go up north...and by up north I mean Utah and Idaho. I had the wonderful opportunity to go to Boise for my big sisters baby shower. She is having a little girl and she is due on Dec 15th. I decided that it would be a wonderful time to also go to Utah to visit my two favorite people ever, Marina and Desi. I drove to Utah on Thursday and Marina, Desi and I went to see Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs in 3D. It was hilarious and my very first 3D movie. After that, we drove around for a while since I wasn't allowed at Marina's house until Austin had left (long story). So when we finally got there at like 11:30 pm...I made breakfast burritos for us, and they were yummy! The next morning I drove up to Boise for a weekend with my family. Diana has gotten so big, she has a belly! I was so excited to feel the baby (whom we all call Billette) kick, but everytime I put my hand on D's stomach, Billette stopped moving. I got the feel her jumping a couple of times and I got to see her move around a whole bunch, so that was cool. Saturday morning we had D's baby shower and there was tons of food, people, and presents. Needless to say, D won't have to buy any baby clothes till the girl is about 9 months old! She got lots of cool stuff and I totally went overboard and bought a TON of clothes, so many clothes in fact that Dom was starting to get mad at me! After the baby shower we went back to D's house and I sorted out all the clothes. Then on Sunday we put her stroller and pack-n-play together. I got to see my mom and both of her sister's, neither of whom I have seen since my grandma's funeral 4 years ago, so it was nice to see them. The only Loosli girl who was missing was Rob's wife Allison, but I'll get to see her at Christmas.
Things are moving along with our house. The selling realtor is very hopeful that we will be able to close by November 30th, if not a few days earlier. All I can say is that I can not wait for the house thing to be done so that I can get in there and paint and move! If things keep moving the way they are, I should be in my own house by Christmas! We are both really excited about the thought of being in our own place. We love Dom's parents and appreciate them letting us live with them for free, but we are ready to be on our own and in our own space! I am going to be driving to Texas at Christmas so that I can bring back a trailer full of my stuff...I don't even know what my mom has of mine other then my grandmother's china. I know there are boxes from when I was little and in high school, but I have no clue what is in them, so it shall be fun to unpack and see what I thought was important! I also have an antique hutch that all my china goes in, but I think that is going to have to be moved by professional movers, cause it scares me to think about moving it myself! I'm scared enough about making the 17 hour drive by myself...I'm thinking that I will have to stop somewhere along the way, I just don't know where and if I really want to since I wasn't planning on taking more then 1 day to drive each way...we shall see what happens though.

So Dom and I have put in an offer for a house. The house we found is a short sale and so it is taking some time to get a response. It is a gigantic house, which means that we would have lots of room for when we have kids. There is a 3 car garage, 2 master bedrooms plus 2 other really big bedrooms, a large loft, good sized kitchen with lots of cupboards, 3 1/2 bathrooms, lots of closet space, and a backyard big enough to put in a pool if we want. The house is at the edge of the development and there is state land behine it, so we know that probably nothing will be built behind the house. The inside needs paint and eventually we will need to replace the carpet, there are a few ceiling fans missing and there is only one hole in the wall and it isn't that big. If we get the house then I plan on buying one color of paint and painting the whole house the same color and then I'll paint each of the rooms as I save for the paint, but I figure that I can take my time. We do know for sure that we are going to have someone come and put a dog door in the wall in the downstairs master bedroom for the puppies, that way Patton won't keep waking up Dom in the middle of the night because she wants to go out! We are keeping our fingers crossed that we will hear someting soon because we know that our offer is at the bank and they have gotten everything they need, so now it's just a matter of when they are going to look at our offer and if they will accept it.

Last weekend we went to Disneyland with my best friend Marina and her daughter Desi. It was Marina's b-day and Desi's first trip to Disneyland. It was a lot of fun but Desi was like 1/4 inch short for the majority of the rides...so I guess we will just have to go back next year when Desi is a little taller. I got to go on a lot more rides then when I just go with Dom because he is scared of roller coasters and any crazy rides, but Marina loves those rides, so we went while Dom watched Desi and took her on rides! Desi was obsessed with the Matterhorn and we went on it a million times! We always asked Desi who she wanted to ride with and she kept saying me. She also loved the Haunted Mansion and Pirates. Dom was very happy to take her on Pirates since that is his favorite ride too. All in all it was a really fun weekend and I can't wait to go back next year. They are doing a volunteer for a free ticket promotion and we are trying to get Dom's whole family to do a day of volunteer work so that we can all go, I just don't know if it will work. I think that it will be a lot of fun to go with the whole family since there hasn't been a family vacation with everyone in over 15 years! We will see what happens, and maybe it will just be me and Dom again, which is always a lot of fun!

Dom loves the travel channel and anything supernatural/scary. He was watching a show about the best haunted houses in the country and 2 of the top 10 are in Salt Lake City. Once he saw that, he decided that we are going to Utah for Halloween so that we can go to really good haunted houses. I'm way excited to go up to Utah to spend a weekend with my best friend and her adorable little girl, so it will be way fun! It's going to be freezing up there, but I'm going to get a taste of that this weekend. I'm going up to Boise for my big sisters baby shower. I'm really excited for her and her husband because they were trying for almost a year and a half and they are finally having a baby girl on Dec. 12th! I have already gotten a whole bunch of really cute outfits for their baby, but most of them are for next summer since all that stuff have been on clearance lately. It'll be a quick trip but it'll be a lot of fun!