The little things

So about a week and a half ago, Marina asked if Dom and I could watch Desi for her. We love Desi to pieces and will take any chance we can to watch her. The plan was for her to spend the night and then just hang out around the house the next day while I worked. Last week, Dom called me one morening and asked what day Desi was going to be at our house, I told him and he informed me that he was going to take the day off so that he could spend the whole day with her. Then he kept telling me that I needed to take the day off so the 3 of us could spend it together. I haven't been wanting to take time off for anything so that I have time to use when/if we have a baby, but I gave in and said I would spend then day with them. Monday night when I picked Desi up, she informed me that she needed a baby at my house, and her baby needed to be a big dog. Dom has been wanting a big dog for a while. (He says it's so he can run with the dog, but it's really his way of dealing with not having a baby.) I don't really want another dog because I don't think Daisy and Patton would handle it well.
We took the puppies to the park on Tuesday morning and then we went to the pet store to get Desi her baby. She and Dom agreed to get a hamster or gerbil because they are easier to care for then another dog. Desi had a hard time deciding which hamster to get, but she ended up picking a Winter White Russian Dwarf Hamster who she decided to name Rocky. She picked out a fun cage for Rocky and then we made our way home. She was so excited about having a baby. She held Rocky the whole way home and wanted to put her in her ball as soon as we got home. Once Rocky was in her ball, Desi followed her around the house and made sure that the puppies didn't hit the ball and that Rocky didn't get stuck. We went out to do some grocery shopping and as soon as we got back, Desi ran inside and said she had to check on her baby. She did the same thing when she woke up from her nap. It was very cute. Dom and I can't wait till we get to do all the fun things we do with Desi with our own kids.

In baby news, we are starting another cycle this week. We are moving onto injections this month, which ups our chance of having multiples, but if I have twins, I'm done for good. I have to go in on Friday for an ultrasound to make sure that I don't have any cycts, and if I'm good to go, I'll start the hormone pills. I'm not sure what days I have to do the injections, but I'm really hoping I react well. Dom and I are beyond ready for me to be pregnant. I really need to find something to keep myself occupied this month so that I don't get my hopes up so much. I'm going to try and not think about it and analyze every little thing, I just don't know how well that will work!

Results are...

NOT pregnant. I'm not a happy camper.

And so it goes...

I'm not sure how I'm feeling about this cycle. Last month I started getting queasy the day after starting the progesterone, this month I didn't start getting queasy until yesterday, which I'm totally cool with. But I was crampy all last weekend...and I haven't been able to sleep through the night since last Thursday...I wake up about 3 or 3:30 because I have to pee and then I can't go back to sleep, I just kinda drift in and out of sleep. I'm super exhausted and feel like I could sleep all day, I just can't sleep at night. I also can't sleep on my side like I normally do because then I feel sick...and everytime Dom flips around in the night and shakes the bed I feel sick. I am always super hungry and thirsty, but I'm totally craving apples and salad. Plus I'm peeing every 2-3 hours which sucks. I've been getting headaches too, which is really uncommon for me. I'm totally over-analyzing every little thing and driving myself crazy...so hopefully I don't get disappointed on Sunday...or Saturday if I can convince Dom to give me my test (he hid them!)

On a non-baby note, Dom told me that he wants to go on a vacation since our last vacation with just the 2 of us was Paris in Feb 09. I'd say it's about time for a vacation, but I don't know if it's gonna work. He got sick earlier this month and ended up using 3 days of vacation. He also has 5 days planned in December and 2 in May, which only leaves him with 3 or 4 days which I want him to use when/if we have a baby. He has 8 float days available, but he can only use 3 in a row...so we are running into issues. I might have him switch some of the vacation days he already has scheduled to float days, but we'll see what happens. If we don't get pregnant this month or next, we won't need to worry about it, but I'm trying to be positive about being pregnant. Also, I don't know where to go on vacation. Dom wants to go to Hawaii, but plane tickets are so expensive. Plane tickets anywhere are expensive and so I've been thinking about going somewhere we can drive. I was thinking it'd be really fun to go to Colorado since I haven't been there since I was a kid and he's never been there, but he doesn't seem too excited about it. I just want to go someplace out of the way so that we can just chill and relax, but who knows what will happen...

And now we wait...

So I gave myself my trigger shot on Friday at 8:30 pm and went into the Dr for our IUI at 10:30 am on Sunday. Everything went good and it was super fast. I came home afterwards and laid down because I was already starting to cramp up. I was expecting cramping considering I had an incredible amount of cramping last month. I had to start progesterone last night and now we wait for 2 weeks to find out if this is the month we get lucky.

And now...

Went back to the doc today...I get to give myself a shot on Friday night! I'll only have 1 egg this month, but I'm totally fine with that! We have our IUI on Sunday morning, which is nice because that means that Dom can come with me. It also means that I will be spending the rest of the day in bed because I'll be cramping like crazy, but whatever...sometimes this is what you have to do to get a baby. I would laugh if this is the month we get preggo because this is probably the only month that Dom will be able to come to all my appointments. Fingers crossed for Sunday!

Boo

So I just went in for my follicle check to see when I'll be ready to give myself a shot. Apparently I didn't respond very well to the hormones this month. I only have 2 follicles, one is 12mm and one is 10.5mm. They need to be at least 20mm before I give myself the trigger shot. Since they are still small, I'm going in on Wednesday afternoon for another check to see how they are growing. Hopefully they are bigger and I can give myself the shot and then have my IUI next weekend, which means Dom would be able to come with me. If they still aren't very big, I don't know what they are gonna do.

I did find out some good news though. Since we changed insurance companies, they had to verify my benefits. I knew that I had a $2000 plan max for infertility, which I had assumed meant IUI and IVF. I was informed today that it is only IVF, I have unlimited IUI's! I still have to pay the specialist co-pay, which is $30, but it's nice to know that I have unlimited IUI's, cause thinking that we only had $2000 a year meant that we only got 4 tries a year without having to pay anything extra. Dom said that since we get unlimited tries, we should just try every month until we get pregnant, but we'll see because after attempt #6, our chances never go above 50%.

And so it starts...

So I had to start taking my hormones today to prepare my body to get pregnant. Let's hope that it works. If we don't get pregnant this cycle, my doctor wants to move to injectables next month, which is a month before we planned, but hopefully we won't have to and this will be our month! If we aren't pregnant after next month, we are going to take a 3 month break so that we can de-stress!