The Little Things

So yesterday Desi called me. I love that little girl. It's only the second time I've gotten to talk to her since she went up to Utah. She used to get so sidetracked when she was on the phone, and now she doesn't stop talking! After I got off the phone with her, I called Dom to tell him that I got to talk to the little one. He was incredibly jealous. When he got home last night he told me it wasn't fair that she calls me and not him, but it's not my fault. He misses her like crazy. She's going to come spend the weekend with us in 3 weeks and Dom can't wait.

So...I married a vampire...

Dom has always liked the dark...he hates having lights on and he's always wanted to have our room super dark. I think that it's because he spends all day outside in the bright sun. I like light and I like to have them on. Ever since we got our house, Dom has wanted to get blackout curtains for our room so it would be nice and dark. I've been wanting to get blinds for our sliding door just because there was nothing there. A few weeks ago, Dom started talking about how he wanted to get blinds and curtains soon before it started getting to hot. I started looking for curtains and found some really pretty chocolate brown ones that are supposed to help keep the heat out as well. Since we are in AZ and it's crazy hot, I figured that would be good. We also went and got blinds for our sliding door. We were looking at all the different blinds at Home Depot and they were all room darkening ones. Dom was so excited! We got home and I installed the blinds, not the easiest thing to do, but it got done. Then last weekend I went and got a curtain rod so that we could put up the curtains in our room. My house is now super dark! Dom is so happy about it. It is nice that Dom actually sleeps in on the weekends now, but still. I'll walk out of the office during the middle of the day and it's still pretty dark in the house. Dom now wants to replace all the vertical blinds that were already up with room darkening ones...I'd rather put in wood blinds, but Dom will probably win. I've always teased Dom that he was a vampire, but now I'm even more convinced about it!

It's gettin hot in here...

Summer is upon us in AZ. It's starting to get HOT! I hate the summer, I don't do well with heat. At least this summer I'm not going to be looking at houses that are blistering hot...so that's nice! Dom has started complaining about it being hot in the house, we haven't had the AC on in a long time and it was set a little high, we've just been turning the fans on to cool the rooms down. I ordered some blackout curtains for our room that are supposed to help keep the heat out, we'll see if they work. I'm very excited about getting them because then maybe I'll be able to figure out how to decorate my room. Now I just need to convince Dom to let me change the door knobs and handles on the kitchen cupboards! Dom and I just had our 6 year wedding anniversary. I can't believe we've been married for 6 years, it seems like it was just yesterday. He spoiled me, of course, and bought me a treadmill. I've been wanting one for a while. We used to walk when he got home from work, but then we ended up not eating until about 8:30 or 9, which isn't good. Plus with it getting hot, it makes me not want to be outside to walk. So now I walk when I'm done with work and then I make dinner. It's rather nice! I got Dom a Nintendo DS and a couple of games, and I'm trading his xbox in for a new one since his is broken. He has a bunch of games that he hasn't been able to play and he's looking forward to playing them. Dom is taking some time off the week of my birthday, and we need a vacation, so I'm trying to figure out where we are going to go. No clue yet, but I'm sure that I'll soon figure it out!

Decisions

So I was thinking about it this weekend and I just don't know how much more stress that infertility brings I can take. We are taking a 3 month break, and then we are going to try 3 more times. I can't bring myself to keep trying if after 6 procedures nothing has happened. Once we hit our 6th procedure, our chances of getting pregnant never increase anyways. So if we aren't pregnant by August, we're going to move onto something else, I just don't know what yet. Hopefully we won't have to move onto anything else, but who knows what will happen.

Once again, not pregnant. I haven't cried yet, but I doubt I will. I was expecting it because really, what else would the result be? We're taking a 3 month break from treatment because we are traveling at Christmas and I don't want to be in my 3rd trimester. So yea, kinda just numb right now and feeling down about the whole thing.

Boy oh Boy

So this month we moved to a new fertility treatment plan. Since I wasn't responding to just the hormone pills very well, my doctor decided to add injectable hormones to the mix and hope that would work. Because we are doing higher levels of hormones, I had to have an early ultrasound to make sure that I didn't have any cysts. That ultrasound came out clear, but the nurse did ask me how I felt about twins, I said twins would be great because then I'd be done having kids. Then she asked me about triplets...Triplets scare me! I think that I'd be okay with 2, but 3 is just too many, thankfully our chance or triplets is only like 6%. Since I checked out cyst free, I got to give myself 3 hormone shots. The needles are tiny, but they hurt!
I went into the Dr. office last Friday for an ultrasound to see how I was responding to the injectable hormones. Thankfully I responded a little better then on just the hormone pills. Instead of my normal 1 follicle, I had 3 that were growing nicely. They weren't that close to being big enough, but since we did an extra ultrasound last month, we knew how fast my follicles are growing. The nurse told me that I could trigger on Monday and catch 1 egg, or wait till Tuesday and hopefully catch all 3. So we decided that we were going to wait the extra day because 3 chances is better then 1, but she did make sure to ask me if I was okay with triplets.
I had the IUI done today and now I"m super crampy, more so then the past 2 months. When the doctor was leaving, he said to prepare myself for the possiblity of twins. He said that it's normally a 20% chance of twins with injectables, but since I have a family history or twins and I had 3 follicles, I have a 35% chance of twins. Now it's just time to sit back and wait for the next 2 weeks to find out if it worked or if we are taking a 3 month break. I really hope it works cause I'm so ready to be pregnant, AND I really want to have a baby this year!

Aside from baby stuff, Dom and I both have strep throat, and it's kicking my butt! He's responding really well to the anti-biotics, but I still feel pretty bad. I even missed 2 days of work this week which sucks cause I work from home, but Tuesday I couldn't even get out of bed and then yesterday and today I kept getting dizzy all day long. Hopefully I'll be able to work tomorrow. And hopefully I'll be feeling well enough to go on a date with Dom this weekend! We got to take Desi to the Renasaince Fair last Saturday and it was a lot of fun, until it started raining. But we did find pirate duckies for the pirate bathriim!

The little things

So about a week and a half ago, Marina asked if Dom and I could watch Desi for her. We love Desi to pieces and will take any chance we can to watch her. The plan was for her to spend the night and then just hang out around the house the next day while I worked. Last week, Dom called me one morening and asked what day Desi was going to be at our house, I told him and he informed me that he was going to take the day off so that he could spend the whole day with her. Then he kept telling me that I needed to take the day off so the 3 of us could spend it together. I haven't been wanting to take time off for anything so that I have time to use when/if we have a baby, but I gave in and said I would spend then day with them. Monday night when I picked Desi up, she informed me that she needed a baby at my house, and her baby needed to be a big dog. Dom has been wanting a big dog for a while. (He says it's so he can run with the dog, but it's really his way of dealing with not having a baby.) I don't really want another dog because I don't think Daisy and Patton would handle it well.
We took the puppies to the park on Tuesday morning and then we went to the pet store to get Desi her baby. She and Dom agreed to get a hamster or gerbil because they are easier to care for then another dog. Desi had a hard time deciding which hamster to get, but she ended up picking a Winter White Russian Dwarf Hamster who she decided to name Rocky. She picked out a fun cage for Rocky and then we made our way home. She was so excited about having a baby. She held Rocky the whole way home and wanted to put her in her ball as soon as we got home. Once Rocky was in her ball, Desi followed her around the house and made sure that the puppies didn't hit the ball and that Rocky didn't get stuck. We went out to do some grocery shopping and as soon as we got back, Desi ran inside and said she had to check on her baby. She did the same thing when she woke up from her nap. It was very cute. Dom and I can't wait till we get to do all the fun things we do with Desi with our own kids.

In baby news, we are starting another cycle this week. We are moving onto injections this month, which ups our chance of having multiples, but if I have twins, I'm done for good. I have to go in on Friday for an ultrasound to make sure that I don't have any cycts, and if I'm good to go, I'll start the hormone pills. I'm not sure what days I have to do the injections, but I'm really hoping I react well. Dom and I are beyond ready for me to be pregnant. I really need to find something to keep myself occupied this month so that I don't get my hopes up so much. I'm going to try and not think about it and analyze every little thing, I just don't know how well that will work!